ARGH can't you just shut up and leave me alone? You know why people never listen? Because you rant on and on about the same point. After you're done, you go on to the next point. For the next one hour. Etc. And you connect so many irrelevant situations together and make inferences.

What the heck!?

 And I'll update more. I promise. See? - I've already posted 2 entries within a day ^^

So I have been back for about 4 days and I already am wishing I was back in the esm dorms. Honestly, if the dorms opened earlier, I'd try and change my flight date earlier. Why? I guess you could say it's my fault...I just have to learn to shut my mouth and swallow whatever I want to say to defend myself. Because the consequences are just not worth it.

People are having fun during the break, catching up with friends, taking a break from school and work, and generally having a good time. Me? Stuck at home, spring cleaning, practicing. But life could be a lot worse, so I guess this isn't too bad eh? Just feel a kind of heaviness whenever I think of the situation at home. Kinda sucks, but what can I say, life's a vacuum cleaner. Then again, somehow I'll pull through. Life's good, this family thing is just bothering the hell out of me. But at least I have awesome friends to help me along. :)

Yesterday's outing with yellows was fun though! :) Haha you guys always make my day. Even though I couldn't make it for the sleepover (damnit) it was still good to just talk and laugh. I just wish the prawn fried rice had more prawns though... >< hopefully my mum won't be too mad soon and I can go out more often. And THANKS CASSANDRA AND AMANDA for the blue sweater! :) I really like it k!! Even though you say I'm poker-faced...hahaha.

Been considering the possibility of visiting stnicks, SNYO, string. Great communities, had many wonderful memories - cue the wave of nostalgia. Sometimes I selfishly wish that these people could stay in my life forever. Yes yes I know it's not possible. Just in a rather heavy mood now. Also, I have a theory in which I attribute this mood to End of Year Nostalgia.

So yes. I know that all sunshine and no rain makes for a desert. But it's a freaking thunderstorm here, is it too much to ask for shelter!?

...for my violin, at least?

So I woke up at 10.30 today. Apparently I was unconscious all the way till then, because I didn't hear Rebekah wake up, nor did I hear my alarm go off at 9am (or maybe I did and switched it off without knowing). Had to rush off for German class, because no way am I going to miss that. Dropped off my portfolio at baldo's door. I hate having to walk through the creepy hallways. (and I later found out that I didn't actually need to walk through those hallways -_- talk about smart)

So I have to rush off for lunch. And practice. And lesson. Then quartet. Then dinner. And then quartet recital. And then...probably composition.

Can't wait till end of wednesday.

Just hang on there, couple more days...

It's december! It snowed yesterday.

Ok so I am in the middle of Week from Hell. Let's see if I survive. Less than 20 days' to Singapore <3

  

So I am missing my two darlings. Nevermind, it's just slightly over a month more back to Singapore. Hopefully they remember who I am, haha. If not I'll be in for a painful surprise, literally.

So. I am updating my forever stale and dead blog. Although I am questioning my sanity, because I have to do this library assignment that's due on friday. But the professor says it's "brief", so I'll just have to take his word on that I suppose?

School has been the usual, I've gotten assigned essays, written essays, survived essay drafts, submitted essays, received essays. Did I mention that I've been assigned essays? 

Weatherforyou.com has been forecasting snow "Tonight" or "Next day", but I've learnt to treat it with immense distrust, and I should probably only believe I'll see a few flakes of snow if it predicts a blizzard? Lately the weather has dropped from 60F to about mid 30-40F. Speaking of which...I walked in 3degC weather with a T-shirt and a light long-sleeved (walmart) shirt to school today. Ok ok, I also had jeans and shoes on. It's a good thing the walk only takes 5 minutes. Well I could reach school in less than that time if there wasn't a traffic light to account for.

German's fun - getting the genders of nouns are a pain in the rear though. Question is, who am I going to speak German to when I come back to Singapore!? Damn..

And I love the current orchestra repertoire - Brahms' Academic Festival Overture and Strauss' Death and Transfiguration. :)

Somebody please distract me now -

WOOOOH I'm back! School has been super duper cold fun. Quartet rehearsals with Julia/Jon/Sam and Nathaniel/Sterling/Sarah are really fun times! Abit unproductive at times, ahem, where we end up discussing broccoli and Thailand themes?!

Apart from FWS, school work isn't much. Still, I guess the second draft that's due soon plus our research paper AND the presentation on a Shakespearean text is kinda a pain but it's accomplishable? Got to catch up on theory though. Feels like the rest of my class is so smart :X AND I gotta practise rhythmic dictation. Aural midterms next week, with chorale, melodic and rhythmic dictation, solfege and scale degree singing....argh.

The people here are real fun too, but I still miss yellows! However there are just certain conversations you'll never have except at conservatories. Like how discussing a simple thing like peach dessert can lead to dynamics and articulation signs!? Wth hahaha. One thing I really miss are asian spices though. AND cooked veg. The stirfry here is mediocre at best. It's mainly due to the ingredients, or lack thereof. With just tofu/meat/cauliflower/broccoli and soya/teriyaki sauce and oil, how far can you go!? Not very far aye?

Enough said. I just got back my first Shakespeare draft back, need to talk to the teacher about some stuff to fine tune it before my second draft. I've got to come up with another 800 odd words. O:

Fall break is finally here! :) Got to spend it practising, doing my essay and research paper AND composition. Must not procastinate. Finish everything before tuesday. Yes, that is my goal. Okay well I will still practise on tuesday but that's a different story.

:)

WOW I just realised I haven't posted for more than a month! Okay so now I am updating my blog. :D

Let's have a summary of what happened today, starting from 12:00am.
Close to 1am: Mum called, insisting I get on Oovoo right this instant.
1:30am: I finally manage to get off, telling her I have a German test the next day today.
6:45am: I get another call from Mum, apparently she thinks that this is the best time to receive news that a bank draft has been sent and that I should get it soon.
7:20: ANOTHER DAMN CALL, ASKING WHY AM I STILL IN BED AND NOT IN CLASSES. Me: "Mummy, classes here only start at 8:35." "Oh."
8am: I eat breakfast, get out of my room and go for classes.
8:45am: Barely awake.
9: Zombie-fied.
9:25: End of class! Now time for Shakespeare.
10:25 Shakespeare class finished. Now for German.

And wth, what is "111" in German anyway!? Hundert und elf?! I have no idea. Elfundhundert? Einhundert und elf? Wth.

After German, lunch. After lunch, some talk to a handful of international students about working off campus on on-campus locations. Yes, that's right. After the talk, orchestra which was kind of a disaster because I didn't practise my part. Yet. Orchestra just finished, and I want to sleep. The only reason why I'm in my room here is because I wanted to get some stuff to go and practise, and I wanted to eat as well.

Okay today has been a rather irritating day. Bye.

Hilarious conversation as Sarah and I were walking around BPP -

(please note that the following conversations are punctuated with random bursts of laughter)

Sarah: You know that guy, zhang, zha - (bursts into laughter/giggles/something)
Me: Zha???
Sarah: Zha - , er oh OLD CHANG KEE!
Me: (looks at the guy) ya why?
S: Don't look at him so long if not he'll figure we're looking at him!!!
M: WHY? What about him!?
S: The other day I saw him on the same bus as me!
M; And...?
S: And he had this hot pink -
M: And he had this HOT THING!?
S: HOT PINK!!! Hot pink hair extension!
-several minutes later-
S: OH here was the place that I met Mr Wong for the second time! I remember now because that guy with hair extension and him were similar in that they were both eating Mr Chang!
M: Eating MR CHANG???
S: (laughing gibberish)

Wth HAHAHA.

Then later in the car:

S: I like kueh bangkit, kebangan! (proceeds to think up 20 different sentences that include "kueh bangkit" and "kebangan", like: )
S: I want to buy kueh bangkit to eat in kebangan court! [etc -.- ]
(and after spamming the nice, silent car atmosphere with 20 different sentences, she finishes off with: )
S: bangkitbangkitbangkit.

HAHA. Somehow we ended up looking at phone pictures using slideshow, and a good 20 minutes later:

S: Kueh bangkit. Heehee...

Sarah: 10 ; Mary-Anne: 0

HAHAHA.

So I was contemplating blogging about my last SNYO concert last night, before I lost the mood, but Sarah and I got distracted by a post-concert high to take a few hilarious and embarrassing shots of me attempting to propose to her that may or may not find its way onto facebook soon.

Given our past rehearsals, our performance yesterday was really great (: Brahms was quite decent (I make it sound like Brahms is usually indecent-.- ) ah well managed to breeze through several problem spots (ie rushing lol) but sometimes we still ended up rushing yes? But at least it didn't spiral into disaster or something. Ahh I thought Davin was awesome! Haha I wanted to listen but then I didn't dare let myself :P

Intermission and after-concert time wasn't as good as it usually is at VCH. Maybe it's because we're given separate rooms (violins, violas etc) so most of the time too lazy to go out :D or if I do I just stick around the same group cos I don't want to get lost from them -.- as a result, didn't take that many pictures with people. Ahhh my last concert and so darn few pics D< nevermind.

It was strange, really. During Brahms, various SNYO memories came to mind. The 2 camps I went to, Italy, (strangely I also recalled eating macs at Italy -.- ) many many things. It wasn't so overwhelming that it was distracting - sort of hazy, vague. [I sound like I'm talking about impressionism! Go Debussy :D ] I'll miss many people in SNYO, won't say names here though. Even though sometimes I thought things were shallow, at least they still provided fun memories. Even though sometimes it felt like music was being sidetracked, the concert more than made up for it (: I'm really proud of having been a member of SNYO and I hope the orch'll continue to grow in music and spirit always.

Thank you, SNYO.

Just now as I was cycling, a white splat of bird shit landed on my right hand. Wth, isn't the possibility of that happening like one in how many thousand/million? Taking into account the fact that I was cycling really fast because of the rain. Yeah, so with the rain falling down (duh it falls down, right :D) it caused the white splat on my hand to become a watery, milky splat with some green solid stuff in it -.- (cos at first the liquid was quite viscous so I didn't see the green stuff till after it became...diluted.)

Ugh gross. At least I was able to wash it off within a few minutes. And somehow, some shit bounced off my right hand and landed on my left hand as well. So my left hand had like white dots on it. I don't even know how that's possible since my left hand was like more than 40cm away, but yeah it happened.

I just collected back my visa picture, and I look horrible. The photographer pressed the shutter when I wasn't even looking at it. Plus, there's this pimple right smack in the middle of my nose. (talk about symmetry) And this hardly counts, but I forgot to take off my specs. And my mouth is in this err weird position since I was trying to make myself smile. Obviously I failed; and I don't even look like I'm smiling since my mouth is closed.

Okay ah whatever, it's not like people are going to look at it that often.

I hate taking these kinda photos. It's something that you have to do but you feel so uncomfortable and awkward while doing so. -.-

Preschoolers + three containers of paint each = colourful disaster

That's what the cleaning lady informed my mum and I the other day when she was relief teaching art - the cleaner kept complaining about the regular teacher.

Anyway,

LR is finally over! Yay. On the other hand, last SNYO concert's coming up ): after that I have lots and lots of preparation to do...theory here I come. ARGH. Oh well. On the whole, I can't wait though! (: no more slacking hahaha.

And before I leave I want to meet up with lots of people! And have a crazy sleepover (with no sleeping) with yellows! But I'm not sure if they have the time or not ): ): ): like a huuuuuge sleepover with as many people as possible! And must go diary shopping with NMODMOTL (:

Should I take up this assistant teaching post >( still debating.

Sarah: So what questions did they ask you?
Me: Who's your favourite composer?
Sarah: (shouts enthusiastically) AARON COPLAND!!!
Me: ...I was telling you what they asked me, idiot.

My sister is weird hahaha.

My family has one timid and SLOW specimen of a lovebird. Read her expression: terrified of cameras.

Note #2 to self: Make sure to wash hands very, very, very thoroughly after eating curry, before putting on contact lenses. Just washing it thoroughly is not enough. Unless you don't mind walking around with eyes on fire.

Okay, back to viva voce and programme notes.

"Your hair is wild and thick...just like you." 

Oh geez that made my day haha. Quote courtesy of my dearest sister :D

Saturday evening after SNYO was err rather embarrassing cos had to play for father joachim's anniversary. But anyway there was Sarah next to me :D so didn't feel too bad. Still though, I ended up downing three cups of mocha in half an hour, and I felt pretty good and hyper that night. Haha not that I couldn't sleep...I just felt great.

I sound like some drug addict/glue sniffer -.-

Fun, laughter, socialising followed by music. Nothing very deep, profound, life-changing. So why do I find myself feeling nostalgic whenever I recall those memories? It's my last concert this July. Hope it goes well. Though looking at things currently...oh well. Nevermind, still hope for the best haha. Go go go SNYO (: esplanade here we come!

So tired, heavy, weary.

HAHA spot the glaring error.

Ahhh as a combined result of YO camp + dance night, now whenever I hear music my body automatically starts moving to the beat! >< gah just how many people did I scare. Imagine this - I'm queuing up at a counter, then i start....er moving to the beat HAHA. But whatever.

Okay hahaha Ms Lim told me about Davin taking this formal photo with him in a suit, posing with his violin while wearing sunglasses -.- omg I just saw the picture online it is totally EPIC. Epic, y'all.

Hahaha. Anyway I'm still thinking about the stuff I talked with Lanabel! The close and not-so-close thing...hmm I feel a little emo thinking about it. :\ Don't know why.

Time seems to have flown past really, really fast.

Does your Facebook password have to do with a boy?
hmm well they're not exactly boys...

What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?
Make me like him? Haha i don't know.

Are you a girly girl?
S'pose not

Big or small purses?
Wallets :D

Do you enjoy drama?
I watch drama serials from time to time, but I can live without them

Did you dress up on Halloween?
No

Do you call anybody by their last name?
No

Can you put on mascara without opening your mouth?
Never tried

Have you ever been called a bad influence?
Hell yeah lots of times by my mom

Eyeliner or mascara?
Natural look baby!

American Eagle or Hollister?
Neither

Heels or Flats?
Depends. Though if I could, I'd take flats since I'm likely to trip onto my nose in heels anyway.

Straight or curly hair?
Straight

Hoops or dangling earrings?
Dangling!

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Nope it's still in one piece here, which is why I'm still alive. Thanks for the concern :D

Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
Errr...anything goes. Whatever that person likes.

Do you have a best friend?
Yeah! Jessica [:

Do you like your life?
Mostly

Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
Erm, my uncle's...

Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
No

Ever slapped a guy in the face?
No, though a couple of times I wanted to punch a person. Or two. I contented myself with shouting instead.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yeah

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Yup

Do you ever wish you were famous?
I AM famous, darlin'. Okay kidding. Relax, breathe. No.

*IN A BOY:
Good cook or take you out a lot?
Good cook :D

Funny or Serious?
Both. One that's able to make me laugh, and one that I can also talk serious stuff with.

Cute or Hot?
It's okay if it's neither, cos I more than compensate :D Okay it's happening again. Relax. Breathe. I'm just kidding.

Long or short hair?
short.

Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Oh that's an interesting question. HMM.

RANDOMS:
When was the last time you were in a photo booth taking pictures with friends?
Think it was last year? With Yellows.

Who's the last person you had a sleepover with?
Haha YO people!

Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided seeing them?
Huh, what a weird convoluted question. Anyway, no. I don't think so.

Who was the last guy you talked to?
My dad.

Do you think best friends can be replaced?
All special in their own way!

Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot?
The last person I held hands with....was in duck duck goose HAHAHA anti-climax. I can't even remember who it was.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
That's not for me to say, eh?

Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to?
Close friends. But anyway I talk too much, too freely and I trust too many people for my own good. Hah.

What friend do you tell the most secrets?
Closest friends

Are you going anywhere next summer?
Next summer...

Are you waiting for anyone's call right now?
Nope

Are you shy?
Initially when I don't know people I tend to keep to myself and people get the impression that I'm dao. Aha. But then once I warm up to the person they'll probably think I'm the most talkative person ever...

Are you talkative?
HAHA. Read the previous answer.

Does the person you like know you like them?
Lol. Convoluted question. Er...I guess so?

what does the last text in your inbox say?
Can u give Ms CHEW d mus 2yr Sara b4 thu's lesn w her? (Haha I remember answering this same question in a fb note)

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Ehhhh that's for me to know, and not for you to find out

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
I appear to be. But if you know me well enough you'd say I suck :D

How is life going for you right now?
Feel quite sick when I think of LR ><

Do you smile a lot?
Huh I don't think so

One thing you're looking forward to?
Getting over and done with LR.

How do you feel about change?
I don't usually like it, and it takes me quite awhile to adapt but eventually I do.

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Yeah! It was a weird feeling.

Last time you got a text message and smiled?
Haha a few minutes ago

Have you ever made anyone laugh when they were crying?
Yeah

What are you doing today?
Practise, LR notes

Have you ever regretted letting someone go?
Hmm no.

Do you prefer to be around people, or by yourself?
Depends on the circumstances

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
...probably not. Most likely not.

THIS OR THAT:
Rap Or Rock Music Scene?
rock.

Movies Or A Dance?
movies.

Nice movie or horrible disgusting dance?
Nice movie

Horror Or Romantic Movie To Watch With Him?
Romantic

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
He Sang Your Favourite Song To You, But He Sucked And Messed It Up?
Laugh

He Played Dumb Stupid Jokes On You All The Time?
Tell him to stop it

He Started Speaking To You In A Different Language?
Make him translate it, Or Else.

A LITTLE MORE ABOUT HIM:
Do You Like Your Guys To Stand Straight Or Slouch?
Straight luh.

Shy Guys Or Super Outgoing?
Someone who's sociable, but who's introspective as well.

Do You Like Your Guys To Play Instruments?
Hey, whatever he likes.

For the second time since entering SNYO in 2005, I participated in the camp! I missed the 2005 one which was probably in June. (I entered in July) Participated in 2006 one, missed 2007's and 2008's due to NPVC and confirmation camp respectively. So this is my last SNYO camp. I'm always sad when a camp ends, but this time I wasn't particularly nostalgic or whatever when packing up, due to several reasons.

Firstly, my group members: Ben Goh (Group leader), Johnson, Phoon Yi, Angela, Zoe, Pamela, me as AGL. Reported at 8am with the other GLs/AGLs, ran through some of the icebreaker games like errr some ding dong game. Funny moment:

Someone: Okay okay restart. (after a failed attempt of "this is a ding" and attempting to trace its path as it gets passed from person to person) This is a dong.

Grace: I thought it's a ding?

Phail hahaha.

 

( CAMP! From official start to official finish. If you can be bothered to read :D )

Oh man I think this is the first time I've blogged in such detail about any camp. Oh well it's my last SNYO camp anyway...I could at least do this much.

Yep so that's about it. The only thing that spoilt the day was - upon getting into the car, within 5 minutes mum started nagging and lecturing about a hundred and one things, can't be bothered to remember what.

Okay actually when I started this entry I wasn't feeling particularly nostalgic or sad, but now I think I am ]: This upcoming SNYO concert is my last one, and I feel pretty damn sad about it. Another round of goodbyes to people who've accompanied me for a couple of years. Though I'm not that close to these people like...sworn siblings or any of those drama stuff, SNYO has been something that I've always looked forward to - for the music and the people.

Just last year, we were preparing to go to Italy. Now one year later, I'm preparing for my last concert. Ahh ]: I'll probably be damn high and damn sad this coming concert. I hope we pull off Brahms #4 well.

Okay. Enough. I'm gonna feel really emo soon. A big thankyou to the comm + all those who helped to make this camp great [: got to know more people, can match more names to faces, had a fun time [: I'll really miss the SNYO people when I leave ]:

OKAY enough if not I'll start tearing soon when I think about this July concert.